I know that bloggers get a lot of shit for sugarcoating and beating around the bush with their life problems. I'll admit it gets annoying to see people saying, "I've had SO much going on and I can't wait to tell you/not tell you." and, "Life really sucks so please send me good thoughts but I'm not going to tell you what's going on. Ever." But we all know that feeling. Where you want condolence from others but you don't feel comfortable opening up to the world, or even 25 readers.
I have a pretty damn good life. I have friends I love and have known since high school, and new friends I can't wait to get closer to. I have a stress-free job with my amazingly supportive sister. I have the means to get by on a daily basis. But there is always this feeling that I should be doing something more. Something amazing that will open my eyes and change my perspective on life. This feeling deep down that I was meant to do something incredible with my life.
I'm not an alcoholic by any means, but I love to drink and have fun with people. I feel like alcohol hinders the creative and optimistic outlook I've always prided myself on having. I waste too much time drinking beer and watching TV. I want to lead an exciting and fulfilling life that doesn't revolve around Breaking Bad on Sunday nights. (but I am really sad that it's almost over!)
I love the life in the pups pictured above. When I take care of them, I see the progress Jax (on the left) has made since I've been coming to play every week. He still has a lot to work on, but he's really come a long way. I want to feel like that! I want to be better... A better person for myself. A better wife and friend. I want to be adventurous. I want to do new things.
I want to say that I am trying the hardest I can to live a positive and meaningful life.